I like to think the universe sends pretty clear signs when something is right or wrong for your life. For example, I feel like I was meant to go to London for grad school because I received my scholarship. I think I'm meant to move to New York since I've had great feedback so far on the potential for being hired. And when something isn't right, it becomes apparent. Maybe not immediately, but makes itself present when the time is right and allows you to make the proper decision at that point. It makes me very sad that it had to happen right up until hanging around an airport for eight hours, but a cancelled flight due to bad weather gave me enough of a shock into understanding that all those terrible vibes about going to Egypt alone were probably justified and that I am meant to see the pyramids and ancient structures, but it will maybe be in a couple years, and accompanied by a friend.
I am a bit upset that I lost a lot of money on the flights, tours, trains and accommodation, but I think that I'd rather have less in my wallet than something potentially going wrong. I have been able to get some refunds, but for the most part, that money is gone, but it's provided a good lesson in being okay with losing money. And to be honest, all the money I have right now is my school loans, and even though I have to eventually pay it all back, never in my life will I be given this much money to be able to travel, so I'm going to take advantage of it.
I really don't take this lack of an adventure as a true loss. So I can't cross Egypt off my list just yet, who cares? I've seen much of the world so far, and I am always going to be itching to see more, and when I do finally get there or to the many, many places on my Wanderlist, I'll be happy just to have experienced it when I did. I literally have the rest of my life to see the world, and perhaps I do need to pace myself so I can have places to go in the future.